There I said it.
It's not something I would ordinarily share on this blog, but I have read some very sad stories these past few days and something in me has clicked. I am not writing this for a personal cry for help, I've been there and I have survived. I am writing this as a plea for helping me raise awareness and for some direction to helping others. I am not ready to go through the ins and outs in such depth of just how poorly I let myself get, its a very personal thing to share and I feel this is early days in a grand plan.
I was one of the lucky ones. I had amazing support from my husband, who when things got incredibly difficult dragged me to my GP. My GP was also brilliant, I was eventually referred, received therapy and had a Mental Health Nurse in regular contact.What I desperately needed and never got was a mutual understanding from a Mum who like me knew where I was at, someone who understood me. Parenting Forums were most certainly a great help for me but there is nothing better than having someone with you in real time. I want to change that.
<Gulps some beer>
The problem with PND is that its very taboo and it is very scary. Women don't want to admit they are spiraling downward and they have a fear that getting help will backfire on them. No one wants to lose a child and that was my biggest fear.
I have always wrote best when I have passion burning inside me and this has struck a chord. I have that passion and I am in such a very different place to where I was only a handful of years back. A happy confident place that I never thought I could be again. I have such a strength in me now and it seems only right that I utilize that.
So what do I need from you? Whilst I am going to thoroughly look into it and dig out my notes for contacts I would appreciate anyone that can advise me or point me in the right direction. I am based in Bedfordshire but speaking to anyone in a similar position would be great.
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